In the Midst of Commitments

In correspond to mate's post, commitments is a norm for everyone. Even I'm learning to make use of my life prescribed by God:
* Love
* Joy
* Peace
* Longsuffering
* Kindness
* Goodness
* Faithfulness
* Gentleness
* Self-control
it's much more complex and hard to achieve.
By our limited strengths, I have to tell you: sorry mate, this is "Mission Impossible". Perhaps, our parents can act as biggest backbone in our young days; tardily, these giants lost their "encyclopedia functions" atrophic into dwarf. We cant rely on them anymore, their plenty outdated living practices are contrast with OUR new generation life's philosophy. I ever commented my parents that I didn't blame them cause they are low-educated and we are living in different dimensions during arguments. Instantaneously,my dad look at me, retorted in cursing me. BTW, he is an expect in all these dirty words.
Perhaps (again), our life partner or spouse or BFF or intimate buddy or someone you believe trustworthily can become our fortress. But, we tend to be closehanded, endless demanding but seldom grudge unless we are extremely free and available. You may said I'm prejudice and passive on human relationship. In certain way, I AM cause I AM celibatarian ;p Tolerance is the best lubricant for two homo sapiens from different growth background. The issues is how long can you be tolerance for? I believe even volcano will burst one day, so do you.
Perhaps (again), we can rely on our family members. For me, Chinese "breeding concept" is selfish, parents deliver the children in order these children will take care of the parents when they were old.养儿防老. In contrast, I prefer our Malays culture: baby is a gift from god ( anugerah tuhan). No matter how close in our sisterhood or brotherhood but we have our own way. We will apart when we growing up and more focus on personal life. That's why elder care centres "tumbuh macam cendawan selepas hujan" ( this is Malay idiom means growth drastically; direct translate sounds: sprouting and growing as mushroom after rain). Any botanist can clarify this phenomena?
Before converted into Christianity, I believe we are one and only to trust and to rely on ourselves. However; there are something problems is unsolvable by our limited strengths on particular occasion. Outwardly, we might encourage ourselves keep move on and conquer the issue; inwardly, we will blame someone or something or some place or...
For me, the beauty of Christianity is that as a Christian: we know whereabouts we put faith in , we are not living for our own life sake, we are not belong to us.
"easy talk, do hard", I'm not preaching here but I damn worry at this moment for my new living place, new jobs, new working zone, seeking new worship place, joining a NGO club which is need tonnes of commitments (Don't misunderstanding, I do it wholeheartedly) and deep thought about start new relationship.
Let us be happy as always in the midst of commitments.

My Lecturing Days

It a blessing I allowed to teach in local college. Before started this teaching career, many friends and relatives do advised me to join education industry, I quite resist such suggestions. In my mind: only those who can’t compete with corporate world will return to academic comfort zone. In a certain sense, is a failure’s alternative.

I remember my 1^st lecturing day; it was 3 hours lecture, over sixty students were sitting in front of me, eyes on me and expecting me to help them complete the assignment urgently. My superior orders me to revise examination paper on the same day. I do not know how to cope with all these expectations. After deep discussion with the students, I also do not know how to assist them to pass. During students’ presentation, I almost fainted and do not know how to evaluate their performance.

In a short time, I have completed one semester and kick off new semester. In second semester, I am handling 3 classes. The most unforgettable class is “Governing Business Activities” module. Pls don’t ask me regards this module contents; it’s very conceptual and theoretical based study. My major issue in this class is we have approximately 35 students who just arrived from Mainland China. Most of them have English language difficulties, they can’t understand.even simple conversation. The “beauty” of this module is each student need to prepare 1500 words essay and 15 minutes presentation (No Exam). Try to imagine an undergraduate student who can’t answer such simple questions: Where are you living? What makes you study in Malaysia? etc. However, I very appreciate these students’ efforts and admire their learning attitude. Of course, they are few foreign students who can’t stand anymore with actual tertiary education environment and back to parents’ embarrassment.

I quite shock when my superior informed me today is my last day in Stamford. In this last class, I not even dare to looks into my students’ eyes when I make such cruel announcement to present students. We just build up a very clear understanding towards the module and friendship especially with the classes’ representative. Thanks for their effort to help me set up the projector, to get the attendance book, to key in all the students email addresses and endless ridiculous request from myself.

My dear students, please accept my sincere apology if I make you feel uncomfortable or even hurt you in class. Wish you guys be consistent, pass all the modules and graduate soon.

Well, after all these lecturing days, I have to admit I like teaching very much! I very enjoy interaction with young adults. I hope I can resume my teaching career after retirement from commercial work.

I always push the students to express and work independently but compulsory to follow all the rules which set by myself ;p

2009.11.01_Giant Yankee Burger

I couldn't finish this giant burger with two mates. The price is bit high cause the filling of this burger is quite plain. However, we like the burger meat:beef mince. It remind us our UK's life. The drink i have ordered Pink Guava +Pineapple is tasty but bit sweet.
We like this restaurant deco and location hence we spent 3 hours eating (burger n burger) , chatting and sharing. It feels great when we able to have deeper conversation.
At the end, we decide we will not order this giant burger anymore.The waiter told us restaurant's challenge: If any customer can finish this giant burger by HER/HIM self. It is FOC. Anyone willing to try? Pls let me know...