In the Midst of Commitments

In correspond to mate's post, commitments is a norm for everyone. Even I'm learning to make use of my life prescribed by God:
* Love
* Joy
* Peace
* Longsuffering
* Kindness
* Goodness
* Faithfulness
* Gentleness
* Self-control
it's much more complex and hard to achieve.
By our limited strengths, I have to tell you: sorry mate, this is "Mission Impossible". Perhaps, our parents can act as biggest backbone in our young days; tardily, these giants lost their "encyclopedia functions" atrophic into dwarf. We cant rely on them anymore, their plenty outdated living practices are contrast with OUR new generation life's philosophy. I ever commented my parents that I didn't blame them cause they are low-educated and we are living in different dimensions during arguments. Instantaneously,my dad look at me, retorted in cursing me. BTW, he is an expect in all these dirty words.
Perhaps (again), our life partner or spouse or BFF or intimate buddy or someone you believe trustworthily can become our fortress. But, we tend to be closehanded, endless demanding but seldom grudge unless we are extremely free and available. You may said I'm prejudice and passive on human relationship. In certain way, I AM cause I AM celibatarian ;p Tolerance is the best lubricant for two homo sapiens from different growth background. The issues is how long can you be tolerance for? I believe even volcano will burst one day, so do you.
Perhaps (again), we can rely on our family members. For me, Chinese "breeding concept" is selfish, parents deliver the children in order these children will take care of the parents when they were old.养儿防老. In contrast, I prefer our Malays culture: baby is a gift from god ( anugerah tuhan). No matter how close in our sisterhood or brotherhood but we have our own way. We will apart when we growing up and more focus on personal life. That's why elder care centres "tumbuh macam cendawan selepas hujan" ( this is Malay idiom means growth drastically; direct translate sounds: sprouting and growing as mushroom after rain). Any botanist can clarify this phenomena?
Before converted into Christianity, I believe we are one and only to trust and to rely on ourselves. However; there are something problems is unsolvable by our limited strengths on particular occasion. Outwardly, we might encourage ourselves keep move on and conquer the issue; inwardly, we will blame someone or something or some place or...
For me, the beauty of Christianity is that as a Christian: we know whereabouts we put faith in , we are not living for our own life sake, we are not belong to us.
"easy talk, do hard", I'm not preaching here but I damn worry at this moment for my new living place, new jobs, new working zone, seeking new worship place, joining a NGO club which is need tonnes of commitments (Don't misunderstanding, I do it wholeheartedly) and deep thought about start new relationship.
Let us be happy as always in the midst of commitments.

My Lecturing Days

It a blessing I allowed to teach in local college. Before started this teaching career, many friends and relatives do advised me to join education industry, I quite resist such suggestions. In my mind: only those who can’t compete with corporate world will return to academic comfort zone. In a certain sense, is a failure’s alternative.

I remember my 1^st lecturing day; it was 3 hours lecture, over sixty students were sitting in front of me, eyes on me and expecting me to help them complete the assignment urgently. My superior orders me to revise examination paper on the same day. I do not know how to cope with all these expectations. After deep discussion with the students, I also do not know how to assist them to pass. During students’ presentation, I almost fainted and do not know how to evaluate their performance.

In a short time, I have completed one semester and kick off new semester. In second semester, I am handling 3 classes. The most unforgettable class is “Governing Business Activities” module. Pls don’t ask me regards this module contents; it’s very conceptual and theoretical based study. My major issue in this class is we have approximately 35 students who just arrived from Mainland China. Most of them have English language difficulties, they can’t understand.even simple conversation. The “beauty” of this module is each student need to prepare 1500 words essay and 15 minutes presentation (No Exam). Try to imagine an undergraduate student who can’t answer such simple questions: Where are you living? What makes you study in Malaysia? etc. However, I very appreciate these students’ efforts and admire their learning attitude. Of course, they are few foreign students who can’t stand anymore with actual tertiary education environment and back to parents’ embarrassment.

I quite shock when my superior informed me today is my last day in Stamford. In this last class, I not even dare to looks into my students’ eyes when I make such cruel announcement to present students. We just build up a very clear understanding towards the module and friendship especially with the classes’ representative. Thanks for their effort to help me set up the projector, to get the attendance book, to key in all the students email addresses and endless ridiculous request from myself.

My dear students, please accept my sincere apology if I make you feel uncomfortable or even hurt you in class. Wish you guys be consistent, pass all the modules and graduate soon.

Well, after all these lecturing days, I have to admit I like teaching very much! I very enjoy interaction with young adults. I hope I can resume my teaching career after retirement from commercial work.

I always push the students to express and work independently but compulsory to follow all the rules which set by myself ;p

2009.11.01_Giant Yankee Burger

I couldn't finish this giant burger with two mates. The price is bit high cause the filling of this burger is quite plain. However, we like the burger meat:beef mince. It remind us our UK's life. The drink i have ordered Pink Guava +Pineapple is tasty but bit sweet.
We like this restaurant deco and location hence we spent 3 hours eating (burger n burger) , chatting and sharing. It feels great when we able to have deeper conversation.
At the end, we decide we will not order this giant burger anymore.The waiter told us restaurant's challenge: If any customer can finish this giant burger by HER/HIM self. It is FOC. Anyone willing to try? Pls let me know...

2009.10.19_Neighbourhood Ethnical

I assume all of us want to have warm neighbours, safe living environment and friendly community. Ominously, my present living place is endless nightmare! I didn’t mean to complaint, to pin point, to swear even to curse my beloved neighbours, I’m sure most of them have same feeling with me regarding our residential area conditions. Well, we may divide these issues into facilities and neighbours ‘ethic. Property maintenance management should put more efforts to solve infrastructure matters such as flooding in basement car-park, four of five lifts are out of service, light bulb replacement, consistent emptying rubbish and clean the trash room, “rescue an abandoned swimming pool”, reinstall and renovate public toilets , water supply and water bills matter and etc. Is this sound suck? For me, life is still carry on while facing all these messes. I'm willing to learn to love my neighbour as myself.

Till certain stage, I can’t stand with this fXXXing place anymore. I deeply despair of my neighbourhood ethical when I saw the fire extinguisher display at emergency exit floor after work. My creative beloved neighbours a.k.a vandal took off the extinguisher from its original place for amusement. They burn the red metal container; don’t they know the fire extinguisher contained chemical mixture? If the explosion happens, how many people shall put a hull stop in their life journal? They also sprayed these entire yellowish chemical from fire extinguisher for fun or curiosity. Perhaps, I can’t blogging now because the fire water system in this area doesn’t work, residents often “steal” the fire water system supplied water for personal daily use if water supply was cut-off ; fire alarm and fire detectors doesn’t work; again! My artistic neighbours pull out the fire engine hose and left it along the corridor (what a great art masterpiece!); someone took the fire cock for personal collection. Try to imagine if fire hazard occur, I can’t escape because me at 20th floor in this high density block; fire emergency exit being blocked by garbage and miscellaneous s items; insufficient fire fighting apparatus and poor lift services. (Even you dare yourself to take lift during fire, but NO LIFT.) BTW, we shouldn't take lift.

Every weekend, I do not need to go for clubbing; my beloved neighbours are playing “bomb bomb bomb” music till 4 a.m. When the security guards have been told to visit these amateur DJ, they were invited to join in. Enforcement officers are fed up to take actions toward all these music fanatics. Indeed, they are playing different genres of music: techno, drum n bass, rock, dance especially the latest and hottest one. “Aunty Gaga” comes and visits me every weekend mid-night, my face not only become poker face but LONG LONG poker poker poker face.

Thanks God, I gonna move to somewhere else soon.

2009.10.05_R.I.P Lovely Badminton Mate, Ms T

In this warm late night, I have received a sudden call from badminton mate. He told me Ms.T was passed away in road accident. The unexpected lost as what happened to my dad. Why? Why? Why? I can’t accept these at all!!! Nothing I can do except pray to God. May God be with her and her family.

Ms.T and I meet every Sunday on badminton games. She is amateur and unbeatable badminton player. I’m happy and feel secure when I duet with her in double game. With her, the chance to win the badminton match is high :D She is never complaints about her badminton partner. She is charming, patient, energetic and high spirit player. During rest time, I like to watch, observe and study her badminton playing skills and strategies. Her movements, her drop shot, her smashing is excellent. Although, in single game oppose to her ( the only and the last single badminton games: Kim Vs Ms.T ). I’m the loser, I be sincerely convinced her calm attitude and admire her badminton skills. After that single game, both of us agreed we shall play single game more frequent in order to help me improve my poor badminton skills and stamina too. The truth is it will never occur again :..(

Frankly, we are not close and never talk about our life, job, family and etc. Anyhow, we meet in badminton court, we are pure badminton mates !!! We hit the shuttlecock, we sweat and we fight till the end in every badminton match.

I do not know her religion (how unacquainted we are), but I want to pray and remember her in the name of Lord Jesus Christ at these times:

Dear Lord Jesus, please console Ms.T’s family in this critical period; please grant strengths and wisdom to her family esp. in funeral matters. Lord, I’m begging you to be with Ms.T, lead her to continue her journey under your embracement. Lord, you remind us how fragile we are, our life is nothing but just a breath. Lord, please bless Ms.T and her family. In Jesus Christ most precious name we pray, Amen.

Will miss her smiling face in badminton court

My dear badminton mate, so long.

Blogging and comment it!!!

This is hilarious therefore, I decided to share with you. An anonymous commented me as
"you get through your days by focusing on being vain and being a tad obnoxious."
Well, I consider this was motivated compliment.
shall we show our true colours all the time? I'm sure it will hurt those surrounding u. My initial motive is simple: learn and try to cheer up others instead of make the sky always cloudy. Everyone has his/her own issues: family,carrier,relationship, friends etc cause we are Human Being.
Surprisingly, the same fellow made another comment:
"bother to see the sillyness and call you out on it for clarification which strangely, you did not reply to."
Trust me, I do appreciate this gentleman/lady as I do not know him/her. At least, he/she did read what i have written carefully and criticized it.
He/she does make me feel sympathy to his /her. Why he/she needs my clarification? I'm nobody except a Human Being.
I do believe we have freedom of speech. Wholeheartedly, I wish this anonymous friend ( if he/she allows me to call him/her as a friend) able to achieve his/her dream life.
We are nothing but Human Being.

2009.09.12_HuluYam_Fishing

Special uploaded for fishing's organiser as per requested.
The fishing location is scenery,peaceful and beautiful. We met two couples who have wedding's photos shooting. Wish them happy as always.